For many who’ve been following my social media posts recently, you’ll know that I posted saying I was taking a break from social media for a bit.
This is something that I believe is very important from time to time (referring to my selfcare post).
I know I don’t need to explain to anyone why I decided to take a break, or even tell anyone that I was taking a break, but I want to explain why.
I’m starting to feel like it’s a monthly occurrence, that when Mother Nature is about to call – I feel so overwhelmed by everything and I feel that big ball of anxiety build up in my tummy and I can’t do anything about it. Yes, I could go to the doctors, but I don’t really want to. Not because I’m “too proud”, but because I don’t want to end up needing tablets which I don’t necessarily feel that I need. I hate taking tablets unless I really have to anyway..
Anyway, since the beginning of January our usual routine has been out of sync and pretty much everything in our lives has changed. Finances, jobs and other things, so it’s all just been getting a bit much.
Yes I have my creative outlets, which have been a huge help – but one major thing that I don’t always feel like I have, is someone to talk to. I mean someone who isn’t a family member. I find it hard to talk to family anyway, because I feel a bit judged when talking to family about things!
I’m just finding it a bit hard right now.
I can see myself being the shouty mum that I don’t like and I’m feeling guilty for not wanting to do much all the time. But I just don’t want to right now, and I know this will pass – it always does, but I just need a bit of time to recharge my batteries and re-energise self.
We all feel like this sometimes right?
I’m not a failure for feeling like this, no-one is. We all just cope with things in different ways and not everyone will openly share how they feel.