Even thought it hasn’t exactly been long since I last posted, it feels like forever. My mind has been all over the place with all sorts going on. We’ve had a busy month or so; we went on holiday, I reopened LollyBibs&Co, we’ve celebrated both of the girls’ birthdays and our 1st wedding anniversary too.
Now we’re building up to Christmas and I’m feeling so deflated. I’d been feeling so accomplished with my blog and instagram for a good few months and I’m sure it shows! I’d been very kindly gifted so many things to review and event tickets to attend some amazing events which I thoroughly enjoyed! But now what, what’s next? I’m in no way complaining at all, but here I am doing all this fun “work” for numerous brands, all while studying, running my two teeny businesses, having the girls to look after and so many appointments to go to at the minute, with nothing to really show for it.
Lets face it, our goal at the moment is to buy a house. It doesn’t matter if it’s big or small, old or new, we just don’t want to be renting forever. I’m sure no-one does. But we have now been renting for almost 4? years I think it is, we have 2 daughters who’ll be starting school in a couple of years and we’d like to finally settle somewhere. I know it won’t happen overnight, but I’m trying to help along the way as much as I can.
Obviously I know my blog isn’t paying the bills, nor is my course and hey, lets face it, neither are my little businesses either.
I’ve actually been looking for a job. Any job. Unfortunately I can only really commit to weekend work, but I didn’t think for a second that would be this much of an issue! All I want to do is go to work, do my bit, come home and put money into savings for our future. Why is that so hard? I actually had my first interview in years yesterday. I wasn’t nervous or shy at all, I went in, answered the questions, got on with the manager who interviewed me and I was told that my past jobs didn’t matter because it was for a temporary Christmas vacancy – great! I genuinely thought I’d got the job, but here I am, still none-the-wiser after being told I’d get either a call or email by 7pm last night at the latest.
No, I didn’t have my heart set on working for this exact company, but I still would’ve done everything I needed to, to even potentially make it a permanent job too!
I just need a break, my lucky break. I want to get back to work. I want to take the pressure off my husband a bit and help save for an actual home – somewhere we could even decorate too!
I guess I just needed a bit of a vent. We’re both scared of the whole house buying process, mortgages and all that! But still, I’d love to say that by at least the age of 35 we actually own our home – we’re 27 now.